And so continues the emotional rollercoaster saga that is my yucca tree.
Can you have too many blog posts about gardening? Maybe. But I’m willing to push the limits. An interesting thing has happened. And I’m not quite sure how I feel about it.
The growth that I was searching for, the growth that YouTube promised, is here (insert trumpets and fanfare). But it DOES NOT look the way I thought it should.
And I’m having a hard time accepting that.
My tree was supposed to shoot beautiful new growth from the top of its barren trunk. I was ready for lush green leaves, the perfect height to sit under my off-center livingroom picture. Instead? The top of the trunk died. Died. Dead. Rotten.
But then something popped out of the soil at the base of the tree.
I can’t help but feel God is chuckling at me as it parallels my life. I want to prune a bit off here, make a swift cut there, and see gorgeous growth. Instantaneous achievement of the fullness of His solution.Instead, I see something small poking through the soil of my situation. Fragile. Inconspicuous. Covered with dirt. The growth I’ve prayed for. The growth He’s promised. But it doesn’t look like the growth I imagined. Click To Tweet
So I’m faced with a reality about myself. Do I really want to grow or do I only want instant solutions?
I want instant solutions. I want an easy way out. I want a perfect aesthetic without significant effort, perfect circumstances without significant conflict. But the Spirit inside of me wants true growth. The kind of growth that somehow transforms selfishness into selflessness. So I put aside my want for my desire. To be more like Christ.
What does growing in faith mean?
James 1:2-4 says, “Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.”
and Hebrews 12:6-11 says, “For those whom the Lord loves He disciplines, and He scourges every son whom He receives. It is for discipline that you endure; God deals with you as with sons; for what son is there whom his father does not discipline? But if you are without discipline, of which all have become partakers, then you are illegitimate children and not sons. Furthermore, we had earthly fathers to discipline us, and we respected them; shall we not much rather be subject to the Father of spirits, and live? For they disciplined us for a short time as seemed best to them, but He disciplines us for our good, so that we may share His holiness. All discipline for the moment seems not to be joyful, but sorrowful; yet to those who have been trained by it, afterwards it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness.”
Growing in faith means pain in the moment for gain in the future. It means walking through the ugly so I can live in the beautiful. It means patience in hurt while I wait for God’s perfect solution. It means looking a bit more like Christ.
What are some ways God has been growing you?
*Read more about how God is pruning me here.